Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Alternative Definitions for Words Concerning Desire (part 1)

Ambition: An acknowledgment of one's own power.

Appetite: The sight of unread books on a bookshelf.

Ardor: The warmth a steaming beverage transmits to cold hands, generally referring to coffee.

Aspiration: The long intake of breath taken by a student on the dawn of his or her first day of class.

Attraction: The sight of perfectly applied lipstick on lips.

Avidity: The manner in which a hungry person watches the seconds of the microwave go slowly by as his or her lunch gets warmed up.

Craving: A woman's sudden acknowledgment of the emptiness of her vagina.

Concupiscence: The way a person slowly touches their own body in slow and thankful adoration.

Covetousness: An outfit that perfectly enhances one's butt or waist.

Craze: Said of a person that uploads many pictures of his o her pet to social media.

Cupidity: A newly discovered song that strongly obsesses its listener. Usually this obsession manifests itself in relentless replay, which can cut the obsession short as the listener is likely to become tired of it.

Devotion: The taste of cheese.

Doting: The act of watching a baby sleep.

Eagerness: Synonym for flirting.

Fancy: Said of the urgent need to eat processed sugar.

Fascination: A day on which your Tumblr feed is on-point.

Fervor: The strong heat that emanates from a person that is talking about a cause that he or she feels strongly about. The cause is usually political or ideological, but can also be a topic the person is fond of, such as an artistic expression.

Fondness: The state or quality of hugging.

Frenzy: The state of a person's mind on the first days after discovering a new hobby.

Greed: The name given to the heartburn that is felt by youths as they close their eyes after uploading a picture to Instagram and wait for likes.

Hankering: A dollop of meringue.

Hunger: The want to live exhilarating experiences.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Physical Music

I see through the vinyl capitalist plot: It's just a way to have us hipsterish people invest in useless stuff (because, honestly, you can listen to the same music on free and accesible Youtube.)

But as of late, I have started becoming nostalgic of the epoque when I had to buy CDs in order to listen to music, because that meant having, touching, seeing that object of pure happiness, ie, the music you love.

I don't have the money or the room space right now to buy a disk player, or whatever you call those fancy shingamadigs, but if I could, I would like love to own the following vinyls:

  • Blue by Joni Mitchell (OF COURSE) (JONI I LOVE YOU)
  • The Suburbs by Arcade Fire
  • Fleet Foxes by Fleet Foxes
  • The Queen is Dead by The Smiths
  • Kind of Blue by Miles Davis

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

What is love?

This year I discovered love; it's the feeling of cardiovascular organs expanding by the mere presence of another beautiful collection of molecules. In my case, the beautiful collection of molecules form a fluffy, snowy, beautiful little puppy, and oh, if I could do anything to keep him a baby forever, trust me, I would. 

Friday, July 21, 2017

Meta-blog post

This is a blog post about the things I want to blog about.

I want to blog about music, about the movies I'm watching, about the books I should be reading. I want to take pictures with my DSLR and not with my phone, I want to write some stories and some poetry. I want to dress wonderfully and take pictures of all my amazing outfits. At times, I even want to reflect purposefully about politics and philosophy and stuff, and perhaps share that with you too. Oh, I also have done some traveling, and it would be a shame not to share that too.

So much to do, such scarcity of time :D Hop along, blog readers of the world.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Regarding Happiness

I'm BERI used to writing about all the semi-frivolous troubles that haunt my curly head: University, body image, politics, life, and, most importantly love. I have not been dealt a generous hand in love throughout most of my 21 years. A fling here, a something there, but most of the time, whenever I fell heads-over-heels for a guy (or gal), the persona in question either:
a) Didn't reciprocate
b) Used me and then dropped me

However, now I'm scrumptiously and wonderfully in love and, oh, hey, it WORKED. He is ideal in most of the senses I can describe, and loves me, and is a cutie pie with me, and I am just amazed at the fact that love actually exists and isn't some sort of romantic construct or media-created brainwashing enterprise.

Anyhoo, I am happy and I wish all of you can be as happy as I am. And get all the sex. Tehee.

PS. I wanted to write more about this, but yours truly used to be the kind of person to get annoyed at rubbed-in-your-face love. So I'm not going to do it. Let me know if you don't think it's annoying.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Life As Of Late

I've been busy studying, being in love, working in politics, and being more in love. But at least the studying part is going to wane a bit in a week or so, and then, posts for the blogging world <3 ana="" love="" p="">

Saturday, April 1, 2017


An analogue of my great summer diet :)

One of the sad things about the classical blog format (versus the Tumblr format) is that it doesn't admit reblogging, which means that the good stuff can often become historical dust-covered data hidden in the quiet halls of The Library of the Internet.

I hate that :(

Here are some of my fave not-so-old posts that I nevah want to be forgotten:

  1. Movement Dreams
  2. Shine Theory
  3. Almost Five Years
  4. When in Cuba
  5. The Rain in Spain
  6. Anything is Possible
  7. An Ode to my Grandmother
  8. The Ideal Reader
  9. My Love for Clothes Hurts my Left Hand
  10. Día Redondo

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Phoneography as of late

This type of post used to be called "Phoney Sunday" (very Caulfield-esque of me.)  Anyhoo, here's some of my colorful Instagram luuuuv.

Saturday, March 18, 2017

A Reflection on Time

This isn't the first time that I've hinted at time on my blog; how scarce it is, how fleeting is, you know, the usual clichés. How envious I am of Hermione's time-stopping-and-reversing thingy, which allows her to study all the things, go to all the classes.

I don't have a time-stopping-and-reversing thingy.

I can't do all the exercise I want to do, read all that I want to read, write all that I want to write. Sure, I spend too much time on my phone, losing precious time on idle Whatsapp or Instagram scrolling, when I could be investing in quality time with friends&fam, or in working towards, you know, making the world a better place.

It frustrates me so much.

According to my psychologist, the problem is that "I have too many interests," which he doesn't view as a problem at all. But after two weeks in college, I feel immensely tired and immensely frustrated at the fact that I just CAN'T study all the things, go to all the meetings, do all the socializing.


Or, better yet; I want to recognize and aprecciate my finitude, take a deep breath, read a good poem, and think "what is really so terrible about being human?"

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Adieu Summer pt. 1

I've been very active on Instagram as of late.

This collection of pictures are called "Begone, Estival Vacations." You will find them bittersweet with a flavour of watermelon and a smell of nonchalance.

Monday, February 20, 2017

American Pastoral by Philip Roth

Warning: I guess you could say this review contains spoilers, but the novel itself starts with a whole chapter of what you could call "spoilers."
Before the review of this book really starts, I want to say that I felt a bit of sympathy for Philip Roth and his obvious itching temptation to italicize at least one word in every sentence he writes. Dear Philip, I also suffer from that malady. I, however, read Emily Climbs by L.M. Montgomery when I was in Junior High. It's a book about a girl that wants to be a writer and shares her amateur pieces with her rural school teacher, a very passionate and smart but unforgiving man, who mocks the juvenile naïveté of the obsessive italicizer. That is why, from that day on, I have felt a little bit embarrassed every time I give in to the pleasure of italics. Perhaps poor Mr. Roth would've already won the Nobel if he, too, had read Emily Climbs in Junior High.

Now, on to the review. 

I generally feel guilty rating a book that's a renown masterpiece badly due to the fact that it provoked *yawns.* I mean, nobody expects the Odyssey to be lots of fun, and yet we can recognize it has a lot of literary merit, right? However, I tend to be more forgiving of boring books written, you know, two thousand and five hundred years ago*, than of books written only two decades ago which make their pages feel like groveling through steamy and endless shit.

For one, this book could've done without the endless repetition of the same, exact, thing, over, and, over, and, over, again. I do understand it can be a literary device. I've read my Beckett. But 400 pages of the same, same, same thing? Ain't nobody got time for that. I, at least, sadly a very slow reader and a college student and a person with, you know, a life don't.

And, I'm not from the USA, and have no connection to it, so my reaction to the book's theme/teaching/morale is: Another book on the failure of the American dream? How many of them are there? I read my Gatsby already, I GET IT.

Also, as a Jew, I was frankly disappointed at the lack of true Jewishness (no yiddishemames to be seen) and annoyed by yet another Woody Allen-type character (Swede's dad), created to annoy the fuck out of all mankind. (I swear, 99% of Jews aren't like Woody Allen. At least not the ones I know.) And, as a socialist, I feel that Merry and her kind were unfairly one-dimensional. (This I say because I was once, and still sort of am, an adolescent fighting with her conservative parents over politics and economics. However, I really do hope that I'm just not as short-sighted as poor demented Merry.) Anyhow, one-dimensional characters, dear Philip Roth, is another literary device that according to moi, you got wrong, in spite of the inkling of complexity we have of the Swede in the last quarter of the book. That was yum. Needed more of that.

Finally: WHY DOES HE NEVER TELL US HOW THE EFF MERRY DIED. Why!!!!! You could've given us some entertainment, you damn fool! I'd rather just think he forgot.

So, in sum: This book, meh, had it's good parts, mostly bad, can't understand what the genius of Roth is. I am not giving this book less stars because it's my father's favourite book and, as a good Jew, I respect my fifth commandment. Over and out.

*As you see, my sympathy for Philip Roth's italics really do stem from my shared affliction.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Movement Dreams

LOVE IS FREE from Greg Mirzoyan on Vimeo.

I sometimes wonder if I am a person condemned to dream-state. I am constantly fantasizing about all the possible ME'S that could exist: Artist me, confident me, successful me, popular me. Perhaps that is the reason why I'm so much better at starting things than at finishing them; My dreams have enough gasoline in them to spark the fire, but once the quenching crash of reality comes along, my dreams flicker out and are doomed to the cemetery of forgotten projects.

One of the best examples of this is sporty me.

I have often dreamt of being able to skim through a soccer field, with dancing feet that give me confidence in the art that is working as a team and enjoying it.

And I have also dreamt of mastering the more elevated aspects of yoga, of taking the connectedness and conciousness of my body to the Instagram-worthy pose. Oh, and also to feel like I'm flying.

Another of my dreams is to reach a level of cardiovascular mastery that allows me to jog through beautiful places without feeling as if death is near. In fact, what I really want to feel is that the muscles in my legs are made of fire and my heart is an organ whose purpose has never been so much to be alive.

To be able to flip-flop the heck out of my spine. To have the strength and dedication to hike every mountain in rugged ole Chile. To be able to roller-skate, like the "beautiful girls in Barcelona." And dance! Boy, would I love to hip-hop or ballet the shit out of my body.

Honestly, I'm not exactly sedentary. At all. But my exercise mostly consists of gym-time and if I ever practice sports it lasts for a week or so. Probably the crux of all this is that ONE CANNOT DO EVERYTHING IN LIFE, ONE MUST CHOOSE, and I have not chosen sports, because, ain't nobody got time for that (at least I don't.)

So there: I have chosen blogging. I have chosen you guys, my blog readers.  :')

Friday, February 17, 2017


This is not a blog about politics (because I spend my every day talking too much about politics and rarely about beautiful things) and it is even less about the United States' politics, a country that I have no connection to other than the fact that everybody talks about it all the time. In fact, I find it a bit infuriating, that Trump-related news seems at times not to be international reporting, but stuff of national importance. It. is. not.

Anyhow, after probably having alienated most of the people reading this entry with that introduction, I want to state my point. I know that most of this blog's readership is from the U.S., and that is why I thought that my blog would be a proper platform to state what the title says in caps lock. A FORMER PRESIDENT HANGING OUT WITH A MILLIONAIRE IN SUCH A CHUMMY WAY IS NOT SOMETHING TO BE APPLAUDED AND CHEERED, IT IS SOMETHING TO CONDEMN!!!! I am sorry about the hysterical tone of this post, but, honestly, why would anyone think that such a blatantly obvious demonstration of the relationship of politics and money, ie, CORRUPTION, is at all sexy! It. is. not.

I do realize that in comparison with Trump, Obama seems like a God-given cross between Adonis and Mandela, a man beyond charming, smart, and with a true sense of good. But, that does not mean he can go around the day after his mandate ends, frolicking with a guy that has enough money to lure any ole politician into having less-than-commendable motives!

In Pepe Mujica's words, Uruguay's former president (and a man I admire): "Politicans have to live as most people do, and not as a wealthy minority does."

I am not saying Obama is corrupt, or that he can't have a well-deserved good time. I'm saying that I'm amazed at how people can cheer the fact that the former president of the most powerful country in the world is parading BFF status with a guy that represents one of nice democracy's most formidable opponents -lots of money.

Friday, February 10, 2017

Shine Theory

This is my friend June. She is a woman full of drive and power. One day, I will vote for her. Every day until then, I thank the Heavens for having gifted me with a friend so full of love, adventure, understanding, and smarts.

This is my friend Nicole. She is a woman who refuses to subjugate to popular opinion. Her rebellious perspective about everything in life makes her eternally wise and funny.

This is my friend Nathalie. She is the friend whom I brag about: "Ah, yes, I have this friend who studies Theater in Berlin, how artsy is that..." She is also the person to whom I owe most of the belly-aching LOLs of the past decade. (And some of the most rabid teenage fights.)

This is my friend Beatriz. This tiny piece of a woman holds in herself a tornado-like force that refuses to spin in any sense that is not her very own.

My sister. A woman beyond beautiful, beyond dignified, beyond wise. She is, in many senses, the true eldest of the family, and I am, in many others, the young and annoying urchin that is to be reprimanded and Snapchatted.

This is my mother (and me). The woman who holds captive most of my arsenal of love in this world, my eternal role model in everything except political ideals, a woman full to the brim of smarts and drive -the epitome of overachieving. I LOVE YOU MOM!

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Does a book have to be entertaining in order to be good?

It's only been a few minutes since I finished reading The Unbearable Lightness of Being, which is not enough time to settle on how I feel about it. Why?

Because at times I felt like I was upon a work of unbridled genius, and at others I flipped the remaining pages with a groan of boredom. What struck me as confusing was that I couldn't pinpoint why I found it boring. Its plotline was mostly a spiral consisting of sex scenes, pseudophilosophical meanderings, weird but funny events, and more pseudophilosophical meanderings. It didn't spend an excess amount of pages on either of these ingredients, and I usually tend to enjoy any of 'em in appropriate quantities. And yet! I had to plough through its 300 or so pages, despite the exquisite pen with which it was written.

Objectively then, it's a good book. Perhaps great, if it weren't for the whiff of "I've read this elsewhere" that tainted my reading. And yet I can't say that I enjoyed it, not like I enjoyed Elena Ferrante's Neapolitan Novels or Kurt Vonnegut's Slaughterhouse Fifty. 

I don't have any good answers to the question that titles this post. Obviously an entertaining book is a better one, but is a tedious book immediately bad? (This would instantly invalidate nearly all of the Western canon, and I at least don't want Harold Bloom's ghost hunting me down for that.) What if it's sort of entertaining, but never quite "grabs" you? Is it your own bloody fault, for not having the cultured mind of someone who loves pretentiously titled novels?

What does the kind blog reader think?

Monday, February 6, 2017

Almost Five Years

It's been almost five years since I discovered feminism. A few months after that, I started this blog.

I have a very Sofía Coppola-ish memory of the moment it dawned upon me that I needed this blog. It was an afternoon math class, a month before my 17th birthday, and my legs were pantyhose free under my plaid school uniform, a tribute to the dawning spring. It was a few months after I discovered feminism, and I felt very out of place in a High School that was brimming with guys who felt superior because they had junk between their groin and girls full of hateful gossip. I couldn't believe that I was turning 17, and age when one is old enough to do great things, and yet, I had done nothing. Something must be done. And because I had already had a few (unsuccesful) blogs and knew the power of THE ONLINE, 1+1= Start "Dancing without Moving."

(It's funny how I haven't felt the need to change the title. Dance still feels to me like the body exploding with beauty, and by "dancing without moving" I meant something akin to prayer, something akin to awe.)

I was a young girl full of dreams and necessity and I still am. Five years older, still a feminist, still guilty with the feeling that I am piddling away my time, filling it with worthy things but not important things. Perhaps I am a bit more patient, a bit less rebellious, a tad less worried about what others will think.

But in essence, five years have gone by, sort of in vain. I am, however, still a lover of beauty, a child in a woman's body, a person who feels the injustices of the world like knives to the heart, a woman searching for love and finding reality. Etcetera.

I am flawed, and I will always be. But I am a fighter, and I always will be.

Thank you for enjoying the journey with me, dear Blog Readers.

Me, five years ago. Even physically I am still the same.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

When in Cuba

The past few weeks I spent backpacking through Cuba.

Although the backpacking experience was something new in and of itself, it was that I went to a socialist country that piques most people's interest.

The questions I've received afterwards range from "Is it beautiful?" to "Are people famished?" No, people aren't famished, and yes, it's beautiful, but not in the classical sense. 

Most of Cuba is worn and tattered (except for the highly touristic spots), but it carries out its aged look with dignity and pride.

Propaganda is everywhere to be seen, capitalist amenities are hard to find (anytime I found Coca Cola I would shrill with glee, and then giggle at my capitalist vice), and people are overly friendly and are wont to spend an easy 20 minutes talking to the tourist stranger -about politics, culture, attractions, whatever (this makes me wonder how true it can possibly be that the police arrest anyone who blabs, because boy do people blab freely.)

It's a multicoloured country, and by this I'm referring to the people, the streets, the ideas -and the truths. 

Alas! Keep in mind that anything I can tell you is from a tourist's perspective, that is, I always had cash in my pocket, people were often kind to me because I was the money-bearer, and I only visited tourist-friendly towns (usually the richest ones.)

All in all, I would say that Cuba isn't poor in the classical sense; its people are rich in culture and knowledge thanks to the great educational system, they are all healthy and fed and clothed, but they aren't rich in the classical Occidental way. You won't find expensive cars or fancy stores, for instance.

On the other hand, I was sort of estranged by a number of things I assumed that a socialist country would provide for free, and didn't: Housing, transportation, electricity. I couldn't believe people were supposed to pay for these basic rights, just as neoliberal Chileans do.

All in all, this is a country that has decided to have a different conception of prosperity. It has its many flaws, MANY flaws, but, in sum, it works pretty fine. In a number of ways, it works better than others. And whatever is to be its destiny, it should be up to the Cuban people to decide. 

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Journaling is my hot, hot, sex

In many ways, this blog is like Gilmore Girls. Not just in the sense that the main character is way hot (me)(please, Sheldon Coopers of the world, try to understand my humour), but also because I feel that nothing is better expressed than as when expressed through a pop culture reference. (In case you didn't get the title's reference, check THIS out before we can be friends.)

Anyhoo, summer has arrived for my happy Chilean self, and with it, a lot of time to dedicate to journaling. And because I mostly suck at prettifying stuff (in contrast with my huge talent at uglifying things) I need very professional artistic inspo to get me going. Here are some things I've found through the magic of Tumblr (you can also find the due credits here.)

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